What's up awesome developers on the internet!!

It's Monday and just finished my cup of coffee. Ugh, you know-how Mondays are :(

Story Time!!

I remember I started a youtube channel of my own, where I wanted to upload video tutorials obviously programming related. Cause I'm a loser and I don't have any other cool hobbies like playing the guitar or making travel vlogs. I always had a fantasy to create my channel but I'm a very shy and ugly person in front of the camera. So after two years of me hesitating I finally created the channel and started recording tutorials in my native language because if you don't know already I'm from India. So, I thought if I start creating the vids in my native language then it will boost my confidence, and then I can move on to create tutorials in English.

So, I started recording tutorials in Java (because it's a very popular language among Indian College students). So I uploaded 25 tutorials (If you understand Hindi you can watch it here). Not many people watch it, I can understand why though(I hate my voice).

After uploading 25 videos and I was not getting any views which made me feel very less of myself. Cause you know I was working hard. I was recording the audio from my headphones after coming from my Day Job and if the Fan was on then the audio was horrible. So, I have to sit in without the Fan and record the video. And this time of year (i.e, Summer) in India is extremely hot.

On the 12th day, I lost all hope and was frustrated with the number of views. The count was zero and I was not getting any new views even after uploading every day. I was heart-broken and depressed, I remember I was sitting in my balcony with a cigarette in my hand, it was 2 AM. I wanted to record another tutorial but I didn't and went to sleep.

I know most of you are thinking that it's only been 1 week of uploading I should've been more optimistic and I totally agree on that but think about constantly recording and editing tutorials and then uploading them every day creating a habit and still seeing the number zero not even a view.

So I wake up the next day and I played my own video on incognito mode and then switched to youtube and there one view shows up. And I manually did this again and again and some hours later I had 22 views. I was happy that's why I ignored the guilt inside me.

And after some time I was bored with me watching my videos on Incognito mode. And that's where my inside developer took this self-conscious act to another level by automating this guilt trip of mine.

Below is the code I used to automate the process.

The process was automated but after uploading 13 more videos and using this script to satisfy my ego, I finally realized the fake view was not the point why I was doing this. I just stopped uploading videos and now I'm taking some time to think about how to be a better developer and continue creating Videos after some time.

I know it's very shameful and it was very hard for me to share this publicly. But I feel a lot better now after sharing this😃.

Stay Safe, guys. See you next time. Peace☮️.