It has really been long time since I've created a post. I am still 3rd year college that time when I have created my articles here in Dev.to. But times really flies fast. I just graduated in Computer Science here in the Philippines.

But what now?

I already have acquired a fulltime job in a startup company in Austria months before my graduation. And it has been the greatest teacher for me ever since, greater than all the professors that I have in the university. Startup teaches you a lot of things and fast. But of course, in exchange of some bite off your insanity. But yeah, as I always tell myself and to others, great pressure comes with great experience.

But even after having a stable job after the official class ends, I stumbled on a common trap when people reach there long live dream, I become lost. Though I am already aware of this, I just can't avoid feeling lost, down, and depressed. I always thought that if I will be having another long-term goal again, I can be free from the sadness and emptiness, but no. I always have a lot of long-term goals in mind after graduation. That is to become proficient software engineer, build a startup company, etc.

This has been my state for about 2 weeks after the class officially ends (before graduation day). Right now, I got back my vigor to learn and improve in the field of my passion. What is the solution then? How did I overcome this emptiness? I don't have a scientific and concrete answer if that is what you are finding in this article. What I did is I write. I listed out what is the reason why I started in the first place. Why did I eagerly grind in the past, even sacrificing my social life and attendance count. That is the time when I got back my fire to pursue all my other long-term goals that has been brushed off by my emptiness. After that, I planned everything out again. What will be my goal for the next 1, 3, and 5 years from now. And what will be the things I need to do and incorporate in life to be able to reach those goals.

Right now, I am still working on the startup company as a tech lead of our small and only development team. I am still learning and surely have a long way to go to become proficient software engineer. I will now be posting on my blog regularly every week about my journey to become a Software Engineer, you can join me in my journey by following me. Thank you.