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It's never too late to restart

Hi there, I'm in my early twenties, and for some strange reason, I hear myself say things like 'I used to love reading', 'I miss being able to sit for hours solving calculus', and 'I miss being able to focus and concentrate'. It's sad how much I had lost and how far I had gone before realising how much of myself I had let go. It's sad to see now that the need for my old self makes me see and miss the absence of the old me.

So the quote highlighted above is used more frequently by people who started new careers or got new degrees in their 30's. It's mostly one decade past the previous. I am in my 20s wanting my teen self as they in their 30s reflect on their twenties or childhood and decide they want something else for themselves.

I'm not waiting until I'm 30 before deciding to restart. I'm not necessarily restarting, I'm just trying to actualise my potential by becoming who I need to be while at it.

Things to get rid of

Procrastination
Lack of discipline
easily distracted / lack of focus
too much use & consumption of social media
People pleasing and over-depending on others (for excitement) while self-sustaining. It'll suck me dry, and I'll always be confused/without direction
lack of enough fuel or passion
not knowing what I want
abandoning projects/plans mid-way
unwillingness to do the hard things
forgetfulness

Things I used to struggle with:

all of the things I need to get rid of
indiscipline & addictions
anxieties, panic attacks, overwhelming feelings, brain saturation, inability to focus, forgetfulness, grief, not knowing how to process emotions, being extra like feeling too much or disconnecting (I'm sanguine so I'm almost always bursting with energy when I'm with people, but being sad/lonely/melancholy when I'm at home.