I have been frustrated by the constant rejection emails I have been getting. I don't wear them as a badge of honor as much as a reminder of how discouraging the tech industry can be. I often have thoughts of maybe if I wasn't female or maybe I was white, I would have gotten a job faster. I feel like I am doing something wrong and I don't know what it is. I have been doing the following:

-Networking
-Attending Meetups
-Asking for what I could do better in interviews
-Updating my resume (I have 3 versions of the same resume.)
-Building projects
-I have my own website
-Taking on independent projects for free to build my resume (I, however, would not work for a startup with no funding/for free, I tried that before and I didn't feel motivated with the project.)

I have come to the conclusion that the city I live in is not junior friendly however, it is unrealistic for me to consider a move since I am a junior and nobody would pay for me to relocate since I have no experience (I was told this on a Slack channel.)

I feel like I am hitting a brick wall and think I have wasted a year and a half looking for work. I have so many negative thoughts that I wonder if it's even worth it to keep going.

I really want somebody to tell me what I am doing wrong. I feel like people are laughing at me behind my back for wasting time going into the tech industry. If I am not good enough just say so. I am more than happy being miserable in retail.

Sorry for the negativity of my post.